They know what they're doing to me and they make it look fo easy

**Ok this is a short version of the incredible day I had in Nashville, it's the review that I did for the show for www.honorsocietylive.com, if I were to write all of it...I would run out of space**

"Hello everyone, my name is Marisa and here is a recap on one of the best days ever!

Where to begin...ok so my sister Rina, my brother Raul and friend Claudia got to the venue (The Rutledge) around 1:30pm to start making the line, there were only about 6 people on the line which made me really happy...front row for sure! We waited...and waited...and waited. People weren't showing up because a lot of fans went to 107.5 the River for a free acoustic performance (which they did last time they were in Nashville and I had gone to it) So things were pretty quiet for a while. Around 4pm one of the people from the venue comes and tells us that due to Honor Society's plane getting in late and the performance at the radio station the show was pushed back 2 hours!!! So we ended up waiting for 6hrs because they didn't let us in until 7:30 pm. At the time it always seems ridiculous to wait for someone that long...but once you're inside it's all worth it. While outside we could hear Honor Society soundchecking and we all sang along to Full Moon Crazy...twice.

My friends and I got first row and I was next to some awesome girls I met outside in line (Cara and Erin)
We talked some, about our respective websites (mine being http://www.honorsocietypictures.org ...yes I just advertised myself, feel free to erase this part HSLive) and that's when Inter Adam (from 107.5 the river) came out to introduce Esmee Denters and then she came out...she was good. But I always find it awkward when male bands have female openers...it just doesn't feel right to have a girl sing you love songs, which it's what Esmee was doing...completely awkward.

With her set done and the crew getting the stage set up for Honor Society Erin and I started plotting how to take the setlist after the show :) and once they taped the setlist to the floor it dawned on me that I was first row to see Honor Society again and I got crazy excited and nervous. Excited because I was gonna get to see Honor Society, nervous because I was seeing Honor Society from so close...and when I say close I mean close! So close that Andy's microphone was inches from my face. I love being in a room full of fans as the anticipation of seeing your favorite band starts building up and you feel like the whole room is about to explode with excitement.

With that being said...they totally psyshed us out a few times...first with the fog machine, which lead to fans thinking HS was coming out, which made everyone scream. PSYCH!

Then they dimmed all the lights, which again lead all the fans to believe that they were coming out, which made everyone scream...PSYCH AGAIN!

But like they always say, thirth time's a charm...all the lights when out and BAM! Honor Society comes in and it felt like the whole bulding was shacking because of all the screaming going on...and I LOVED IT! Of course I was also screaming bloody murder.

First song..."Full Moon Crazy" with an arranged intro that was complete tease-worthy, getting us all excited and then stopping, then getting us all excited again and stopping again. Watch this and you'll know what I mean http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Km3Evon0tW0 let's just say, they know how to keep us fans hooked, hahaha.

"Full Moon Crazy" set the mood for the night and the instant they started singing the party was started. And believe me, the night was a party!! Fun Fact. I actually had to control myself from stretching my hand too much, because everytime I would, I would be in danger of touching Andy or whoever came to sing in front of me and I didn't want them to think I was molesting them.

Next in line was "Sing For You" which of course got us all jumping and after that a classic and a crowd pleaser "Two Rebels" (oh oh do you trust me enough...sorry I just have to sing every time that song is mentioned). "Where are you now" was next and then "My Own Way" which I love, speacially when everyone in the crowd starts waving their hands from side to side, love it!

"Here Comes Trouble" was next...and man I love that song so much! They also did a little arrangement to this song, a very slow intro, here's a video of it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S8WIdYzzfO8 ...and I stopped writing and watched that video twice, I just love that song so much, it's such a fun song!I like to pretend I'm the girl they're singing about (oh hush, you know you do too!) Hahahaha. After that they did a cover of "You really got me" that's gonna be appearing in Alvin and The Chipmunks 2...awesome!!! I loved it, they added their little twist to it, a little bit of gentlemen-ess, a bit of funk and a whole lot of awesomeness into the mix and the song rocked!!

After that song, Alex came down from the drums and it was time for "Don't Close the Book"...but not before the boys teasing all of us again with their towels full of sweat (how sexy...haha)...are they throwing them to the crowd...no...yes...no...yes...YES!!! And that's when Alex came to our side to say hi to the crowd and I was almost squished to death, hahaha. He grabbed my hand and said "hey what's up"...he recognized me, why does he always catches me by surprise like that? I always think he is the least likely to remember me, but I'm always wrong...he always remembers me. Of course the song is always amazing, so beautiful and the crowd singing it in unison makes it that much chill-worthy.

Next up, another classic with a twist "Why Didn't I" and after that "Nobody Has To Know" which also happens to be a favorite of mine (let me see you bounce...), the bass in this song is amazing, and I'm not saying this just because I love Andy...I'm saying it because it's true, my favorite part of this is song is the bass! You can feel it in your chest cavity, making you lungs and heart vibrate, love it!

"Over You" next, cue scream until your throat bleeds. I pointed to Alex and he pointed at me...clearly he is not over me...hahaha, just kidding (I don't want my sister to kill me in my sleep).

Clap, Clap, Clap..."you were always the girl..." even more screams. "See U in the Dark" is the perfect classic to finish the song with, I believe 99% of the people in the crowd were honor rolling they A**es off. As the song finished a younger fan (read: clearly a teenie) jumped on stage and hugged all the guys, they were laughing. And after that they all took a group bow and left.

But of course with the gentlemen, the party never stops there. Got to do the greet and meet thanks to the fanclub. And in this part I'm just gonna go fast couse I don't want it to sound like I'm showing off. I got hand hugs and had someone get my meet and greet picture from the summer to be signed by them. After that we went inside the venue again and hung out with them and maybe 10 more fans for 40 minutes talking about anything and everything. Got pictures and countless hugs, made jokes, talked with Alex and Andrew about "the thing" that ended up confusing everyone around us because no one was getting it that we were just talking about nothing in particular, hence "the thing". Andy gave me his pick, and got him to listen to my ringtone (the gentlemen's club song) and of course he thought it was the coolest thing ever. Talked about failblog, FML and told him to check out peopleofwalmart.com...more hug and more laughs, they have to leave, hugs again, Andrew accidentally hits my sister in the head and he says its a love bump, gah I love him. I didn't want to leave but at the same time I didn't want to take time away from them. So we left...and that was a super extra short version of everything that went on that night, because believe me, even though this is long, it doesn't begin to cover the epicness of that night. Nashville is always one my favorite places to see bands, it never dissapoints, something epic always happends. Believe me.

Marisa M."

Taylor Swift and something about bitches

I always want to update my blog, but I never have anything interesting to say...at least not interesting for people to care about. But given the fact that I don't have many readers at all, I guess I can just blab away. Of course, now that I'm here trying to write...I don't know what to write, hahaha!

Ok, so last weekend Rina and I went to Nashville and saw Taylor Swift in concert....wooooo!! her show is pretty amazing, we didn't have the best seats in the house, but they weren't that bad at all. The girls that sat next to us were talkers...as in, they started talking to us since they got there, and kept asking questions nonstop, it wasn't so much annoying, but it was funny...I'm used to talking to random girls and having conversations with strangers at Jonas concerts...and I've been to several non-jonas concerts and we've never talked to the fans around us. I thought it was just a Jonas fans thing. Hahahaha.

Anywho, we knew Taylor was gonna have something special in store for the Nashville show, after all it's her homecoming show...we debated and debated who was gonna come sing with her, my first thought was Faith Hill, since she's such a huge fan...then of course Rina and I started to let out delusions left and right...Rascal Flatts...Justin Timberlake...John Mayer...Miley Cyrus...Demi Lovato...Joe Jonas....you name it, we thought about it. But my instinct were right, and she brought Faith Hill on stage and they sang "The Way You Love Me"... the crowd went WILD!!! I love it when the crowd just looses it and goes craaaaazy. Anyways....we had fun, lots of fun.

On to a less exciting note...work...it still full of drama, unnecessary drama at that. All I need to focus on in my love for nursing, and taking care of my patients and ignore the bitches that want to bring me down. There's no point in worrying about them...they'll sow what the fruits of their actions in time.

Now I'm done, because they can get long and boring, once I start writing I don't know how to stop :)

Jesus loves me this I know...

I've never ever been told by a guy (other than my dad) that I'm beautiful...I want from the bottom of my soul for a guy to tell my I'm beautiful...I'm the opposite of skinny, I'm short, my eyes are just plain brown, and I was born with a mouth that only smiles a crooked smile...and I feel like I could never attract a man, because I never have...I'm well into my 20s and I have never had a boyfriend...

Why do I care about all that? Why? It's because like you've said, I haven't let my wonderful God to just fill me up from the inside out with his perfect unconditional love...

I love the Lord, he very well knows I love him so so so much...but I struggle with this mind set that society and satan have implanted in my brain that I'm not good enough, that I'm never gonna be good enough...not even good enough to be loved by God, the one and only that doesn't have any rules set to love you.

God tells me every day that I'm beautiful, he whispers it in my ear every moment or every day, every single time that I'm looking at myself in the mirror I can feel him saying it to me. And then...I shut him down...I shake it off and decide to question him...are you sure Lord? because I think you might be wrong...look at my face...do you see this stomach and this arms?...do you see my mouth? it still crooked and unattractive...I question everything...and by the time I'm done arguing with God and filling my own head with insults about myself...that sweet soothing voice of God is gone and replaced by the hate filled voice of the devil, telling me how ugly and unworthy I am, how I'm not worth fighting for, how I'm never gonna be told I'm beautiful, how I'm never gonna be loved...

The good thing is that God is still there...still trying to get a word in...trying to make me feel his love...trying to get inside my heart and show me how worthy of his love I am...how beautiful, special, unique and perfect I am...he still tries to put his arms around me and make me feel loved in every possible way...because he is a God of love, he IS love, he irradiates love and once I let him hold me in his arms I can't help but feel loved...every second, every moment of the day...I can't help but feel completely and fully loved...


***This is what I left to Christa Black as a comment to her latest blog and I wanted to share with everyone, because this is what blogging is all about, right? Hoping for other people to get to know me a bit better***