Pee & Poop

All I have to say today is that yesterday I slipped on some dog pee and did a split, almost broke my hip like an old lady, now it hurts....ugh! Really....that's all that happened, besides work of course. Oh and I cleaned so much diarrhea today I think I have it inside my nose and up my brain, because no matter how much I shower I can still smell the poop on me. Yes. I believe that's all for today :)

Be Careful Little Eyes What You See

Today on my way to work, I was listening to the christian radio station and this song started playing, I had never heard it, but it touched my heart and mind, it has a powerful truth in it...just think about it...here are the lyrics and it's called "Slow Fade" by Casting Crowns

Be careful little eyes what you see
It’s the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it’s the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It’s a slow fade, it’s a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you’re thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

I want it all back

It's friday night, sitting on the couch with my laptop, a dog laying next me on each side...lupita and gigi, my loves. Everyone is happy it's the weekend, too bad I can't join in the fun, I work this weekend, waking up at 4:45 am on a saturday/sunday sucks! Today is my sister-in-law's birthday, Happy B-Day Amber!! She and my brother drove to Orlando today, lucky them, if there's one place I wish I was at this weekend, is in Orlando, going to Disney and having a blast.

I don't have much to talk about today, last night my sister and I went to the midnight showing of High School Musical 3, it was the bomb!! "The boys are back" = just genius. Surprisingly, it was like going to a Jonas Brothers concert...well..not just like it, but, let me explain, everytime Zac Efron would pop on the screen and do something totally sexy, like take his shirt off, or if they showed his face from really really close, girls would scream and squeal, yes....I did too, it was fun, brought back memories of a wonderful summer that sadly is over and done with.

Now all we are forced to think about is politics, the economy and the war. I want the summer back...things to look forward to, little girl dreams & hopes, the surprise of a teenage fantasy becoming a reality in the most random of days, walking into a mall and running into your inspiration, screaming at the top of my lungs without shame, laugh, cry and jump to the sound of someone's voice. I want the expectation of what could happen next to linger in my mind all day long while I walk around Disney's Hollywood Studios. I want the feeling I had when seeing someone when least expected, I wanna meet random girls that I have nothing in common with, yet share the same dreams with, I want the long nights of chatting, looking at pictures and making fun of people. I want it all back, I even want the annoying stupid idiot little girls, brats that deserve a reality check, the parents that are worst than those kids, the hot sun, the long hours standing, the broken dreams, the long drives, the drama of what doesn't even exist, the desire for something unreachable, the sleepless nights, the butterflies my stomach for someone I'll never have. I want the unexpected eye lock, the giggles and teenie moments that torture me after, I want that unexpected finger point, I want the moment I thought I was noticed, I want my heart to race, I want uncertainty of what's to come, I want the feeling of knowing that no matter how stupid I sounded, I talked to him, I want to scream for Big Rob, I want to feel like a kid again and to not care how old I am, and just do what I want...I want the desire to do something different to come back...I want those few months back, I want the summer back.

I've always known it, I've always lived with it, I've always feared it...the moment that a minute steps into the past and it's not the present anymore, it's the moment I realize that it will never comeback, and so I thank God for giving it to me, and I pray someday something like it will come along, and tonight is one of those moments, when I thank the Lord for what happened and pray for what's to come. So I leave now to go to sleep, knowing someday, sometime in the future, what I wished for to feel again will come back bigger and better, and the present will turn into the past once more, to help me dream about the future again.

ST elevation, that's right, I know it

Yesterday I left work at almost 9pm, when in reality I'm off at 7pm...that should tell you how crazy my day was, well....it didn't start crazy, yes, it was busy, but not crazy, since I was charge nurse I was able to choose what patients to take, so I took the ones I thought were the busiest and sickest patients, of course like always, what the heck did I get myself into, at 5pm one of my patients decides to have a stroke and on top of that start having chest pain and difficulty breathing...yeah, all at the same time...and I'm supposed to be trained to handle that...yeah...but the truth is that I can't do what I know it's the right thing without a doctor's approval, and well doctors are assholes that freaking forget that without us nurses they wouldn't be able to tie their own shoes (sense the frustration??) well, needless is to say it took forever for me to be able to do everything I wanted and knew I need to do because the doctor wouldn't call me back....oh yeah, I forgot, he was off call, and I had to talk to a on-call doctor that didn't even know what the heck was going on with the patient, and then he gets mad at me when I tell him that I think the patient might have had a heart attack because of the increasing ST elevation on the EKG...that's right Mr. Know-it-all, I know what the hell I'm talking about.

So the doctor decides to come in and check the situation out....thank you very much, that's what I wanted. But in the mean time I have to deal with the family freaking out, one of the daughters looking at me like I'm not doing enough, on top of the fact that I have another patient that thank goodness, was behaving...plus I have to deal with staffing, deciding whether I can open another bed for a patient that needs it, and not to mention 2 freaking nursing students that don't stop asking questions, STFU!!!! Through it all, I have to thank the 2 nurses that were working with me that day, because they helped me with anything I asked of them to, thanks girls, I have the best team ever!!

So yeah, of course the doctor comes in, looks at the EKG and says, there's nothing wrong with it....there's nothing wrong with it my ass, take your time and look at it!!! Oh yeah....there is a change, oh yeah, she might have thrown a clot into her brain that's why she is exhibiting signs of a stroke, oh yeah, she needs anticoagulation, oh yeah, nurses do know their stuff....that's right bitches...nurses do know stuff!!!

Anywho...I was just venting there, hahaha....in conclusion, I left super late and had to work today again...but I wouldn't change one minute of that day, why?? because it's what I love to do, I love to take care of people that need to be taken care of, I love the rush of things going bad and me being able to actually do something to help make it better....yes, it is frustrating when your hands are tided and can't get a hold of the doctor to get the things that you need, but overall it's gratifying to know that at least you did what you were supposed to and did everything in your power and didn't hold back.

This is a lot of crap right here, but if you read it, thank you for listening to my ranting, I do appreciate it, because I am what I am, and I love what I do.

Long hallways make for sore legs

Wow...I had forgotten how long the halls were at the floor I used to work at. Today I had to float to 2 south because they needed a nurse and my unit had an extra nurse (lucky me....), so I went back, it is always awesome seeing my old coworkers, after all we got along great and they were the best team to work with, but man!! I had to walk soooo much, my legs are killing me, I'm used to having all my rooms right in front of the nurses' station, and everything is super close, less chaotic. Other than that, nothing else exciting in my life today. My friend Nichole gets to see Taylor Swift in concert today, I know she is gonna love it, because like I said in yesterday's blog, Taylor was amazing!!!! And after seeing yesterday's pictures (not gonna get into that...it's my teeny moment of the week, don't make fun) I really need a Taylor Concert right now, bummer mine was before all of that happened, oh and I've been trying forever to finish uploading the concert's videos, for some reason yesterday my computer kept getting frozen....crap!
Ok, so that's it, well I can keep blabbing away, but no one is reading....hahaha

Taylor Swift's Concert = LoveLoveLove

So my sister and I went to the Taylor Swift Concert here in Chattanooga, and let me tell you, it was amazing!! The again, of course it was amazing, wouldn't expect anything less from such an awesome artist like Taylor. At first it was kinda awkward being there, just because we didn't know what to expect, this being a country concert and not being a Jonas Brothers concert, hahaha...but it was kinda funny seeing all the girls dressed or at least trying to dress like Taylor, you know, sundresses and boots, or jeans inside the boots, with their hair down and curled, lots of bracelets, some even had sparkle dresses like the ones she wears on stage. When we say that, we felt a little relieved because that meant that we weren't the only major Taylor fans in the venue. Of course, we got super lucky and were able to get 5th row, dead center, which means, we were super super close to the stage...another thing to worry about, because we didn't know of people were gonna start getting up and jump and scream and stay standing the whole concert like fans do at a JB concert...thank goodness most of the people on the Floor were standing and jumping and screaming and singing and doing more screaming, so we weren't alone, because let me tell you, we screamed a lot, and loud too. But the rest of the venue was sitting down, I guess because the way arenas are, you don't have to stand up to see the stage, or maybe because there were a lot of adults there, or maybe because people are just lazy and stupid and don't know how to enjoy a concert, hahaha.
Anywho, she sang all my favorite songs, except for White Horse (bummer) and she rocked all of them, her voice is amazing, not once she sounded out of sync, tune or anything like that, which usually happens with some singers. Oh, and at the beginning of the concert, before she came out, they showed a video of her when she was little and as she was growing up until now, it what the most adorable thing ever. The girl that plays the violin is amazing btw, true genius.
Yes, it wasn't a major production, with fireworks and ramps, and lasers all around, but it was an amazingly fun and great show, would do it again a second...like duh!!! I love her!!!
Cannot wait to see her in concert again.